three

i remember
waiting for you
so foreign
so emotional
for my joy
to be their loss

and then they handed
you to me
and i was lost
surrendered
to loving you
forever

you fill
my days with laughter
you keep
me running, always
you are
my son, forever

nine

How many? they ask

and I hold you in my mind

like a dream, like a secret prize

In the shadows of my heart

you age

through a veil, through a glass

you are alive

my daydreams keep time

losing teeth, climbing trees, sweaty sleeping blonde heads

always with me

in the shadows of my heart

And I am so rich

with my arms overflowing

laughter all around me

laughter in me

but always 

hearing

the laughter beyond me

weeping room

every room is a weeping room
where we fight
to hope, to surrender

every room is a weeping room
even we we laugh

every room is a weeping room
shadows and angels
dreams and eternity

every room is a waiting room
for the room where there's no more weeping